Gone are the days of our laid-back "Angel" infant; replaced are they with these new days of our intense, highly-opinionated, ferociously independent, heavily-linguistic, mind-like-a-trap toddler. But we wouldn't trade her--or this stage--for anything in the world! Though some moments can be frustrating with a child who asserts herself at every opportunity and feels all emotions (especially disappointment) very strongly, most moments spent interacting with her leave you absolutely awestruck and with an overflowing heart. How quickly we forget that she is only 20 months old!
Just now, as I entered her room for the third time to remind her it is naptime, the conversation went like this:
SJ: Read Chicka-chicka boom-boom...up coco tree...look full moon!
Mommy: Susannah Joy, it is time to sleep. We are not reading books right now. We will read them when you wake up.
SJ: (closes eyes, signs SLEEP, then...) WAKE UP! (big smile on her face)
Mommy: No, it's not time to wake up. You need to go to sleep now.
SJ: Chicka-chicka boom-boom...full moon!
Mommy: Go to sleep.
SJ: Kiss Mommy. (I lean over and kiss her.) Kiss Elmo. (I kiss Elmo.) Missy? Rylie?
Mommy: Time to go to sleep. I love you.
SJ: Looka moon...crescent moon. (referring to the glow-in-the-dark one above her crib)
We do not lack the ability to express ourselves in the Wood house! She's become so frighteningly like me in so many ways that it's, well...FRIGHTENING! Seeing so much of yourself in your child is altogether fascinating and disturbing. :) While I marvel at her incredible ability to remember and associate people and events from months back, I also cringe when I see her throwing herself on the floor at the slightest disappointment. While I celebrate the observations she makes and the full conversations she can carry on with us, I simultaneously wilt when I see the intensity with which hunger and tiredness affect her little body and behavior. I dislike seeing my weaknesses displayed in this raw "little mirror" just about as much as I dislike replaying in my mind what I must've looked like in my moments of selfish sinfulness. Such is the relationship of parent to child...which is why Harry and I daily re-confess our dependence upon the Lord for wisdom and patience in shaping this little lamb's heart, mind, and soul!
But these challenging moments are well-littered with some of the most precious we could ever imagine experiencing, like:
the way she refers to herself as "Sasi" (pronounced very close to "Saucy"...hmmmmm): "Sasi turn," "Sasi watch movie," "Sasi do it!", etc.
at dinnertime when she spontaneously commands, "Lay down, Rylie!"
when she asks to "wear Mommy neckace" and "hold Mommy eayings" (especially my snowman earrings, which she checks for everyday on both sides!)
her delight in "pockets," and desire to put something into a pocket...even if it's not her own pocket!
her love of dressing up...as a duckie, as a ladybug, in "Mommy coze (clothes)" and "Daddy coze" (The other day, she put my bra around her neck and proudly announced, "Milkies!")
when friends visit and she looks at me very seriously and says, "Fend...kind...share... face happy!", listing off the reminders I give our slow-to-warm lovey each time someone new comes over
her fondness for Elmo, whom she now takes everywhere: to bed, on her Learning Tower, to play with her, in the car
the way she points out and excitedly labels letters everywhere we go...Kroger, the mall, the library, etc.
her new phrases in which she replicates the pronouns we say: "Daddy hold you" when she wants to be picked up, "Give it/you Mommy" when handing me something
when she gives herself the reminder "Try 'gain" if she's becoming frustrated with her inability to complete a task
how she tells us "Stop! Wait!" at a red light, and then lets out a little gasp and exclaims, "Change light! GO!" at the exact moment it turns green
her increasing use of descriptors: noisy, heavy, fast, quietly, pretty, happy, crying (to mean "sad"), sticky, hot, cold, up, down, on, off, under
Every moment is filled with new surprises and learning!
Now...onto all else that she's doing as of January/early February at 19/20 months!
Legwarmers!!!!

Grammy gave the babies two pairs of LEGWARMERS to keep them toasty this winter! Susannah wears hers almost daily under jumpers, over tights, under/over pants when we go out for stroller walks. Above, she admires herself in the mirror with her "stripey legs"...and is quite enthralled by what she sees!
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After announcing confidently, "Cute!", she proceeded to kiss her reflection!
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Pushing Nozu and Piggy through the house in her bunny cart. They "share bunny cart" regularly. Sometimes, when Elmo wants to ride too, things get a little tight in there, but somehow all of these inanimate objects manage to make it work!
Wedgit PlayThere are moments when we watch our little Strawberry play and think to ourselves, "She's suddenly so grown up!" This day is mid-January was one of those times...
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"Elmo sit down, watch," she tells him as she gets the Wedgits out of their bag. Her latest achievement? Zipping and unzipping any zipper she finds! This gives her independent access to her Wedgits. :)
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"Tack Wedgits, Mommy...up, up, up!"
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Looking particularly "big girl" in this picture! She loves trying to dress herself (though she's nowhere near independent on this task!), naming each article of clothing she puts on. On this particular day, she learned the word "jeans" and pointed out her "jeans" to Mama all day long, in addition to showing me her "sweater"!
Mailbox!
Susannah loves seeing the "mailman" and "mailtruck" come down the street to put "lettas in mailbox." Daily she lets me know when it's time to "Go check mailbox!" What's really funny is that, whenever she hears Rylie and her visiting friend Missy go crazy barking at something outside, she excitedly calls out, "Mailman here!" while running to the window! (Other times when they start barking she'll look up and tell me, "Missy mommy," as Missy always gets excited when her mommy picks her up each afternoon!)
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It pays to be a preschool teacher turned Mommy! I have had a real mailbox in my basement for years after a lesson on the mail I did with my deaf preschoolers, and I remembered it when Susannah started to express her mailbox fascination. She will play with it for hours, opening and closing it, putting the flag up and down, and taking Christmas cards and saved first birthday cards in and out of it!
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Diggers and Loaders
At Daddy's school there is a lot of construction happening as the campus is renovated. My neighbor Melissa and I took Judah and Susannah to watch them work on a recent morning! They were enthralled temporarily...but mostly liked the freedom to run about the campus and play on the nearby playground! :)
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Watching the backhoe scoop mounds of dirt from a deep hole in the ground with Judah. She loves going to "Judah house" and talks regularly about him and his "Mama Missa" and "Judah Papa" who "fix fix guttas (gutters)." Our gutters were damaged with a "Boom!" during the December snowstorm, and Susannah two months later recounts this tale. She then tells of how Thomas ("Judah Papa") and Elijah ("Wija") came to our house to work on them!
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FREEDOM!!!!
Playdough on the Learning Tower
One of the greatest gifts Susie Joy received for Christmas from Grammy and Grandpa was her "Learning Tower." Cumbersome...yes. TOTALLY INVALUABLE...YES, YES, YES!!! She climbs herself up onto her tower to help me cook pumpkin oatmeal, to play playdough by herself for upwards of an hour alongside me as I prepare dinner, to wash her hands in the kitchen sink, to bake doggie cookies for Rylie, to read to Elmo or Nozu, to eat her snack on the counter. I recommend the Learning Tower to all parents of toddlers!

Playing playdough with "Aunt" Jackie, who came by for a visit one evening recently. "The Berry" still rolls balls and smashes them into "pancakes" just like Aunt Jackie taught her that night! :)

Learning how to use a teeny rolling pin to flatten playdough before stamping it with a cookie cutter
Beulahland Visits
Susannah and I continue to take Mrs. Fletcher, our former neighbor, to visit her husband at Beulahland, a wonderful Christian nursing home set in the idyllic town of Raphine. Susannah always walks around and greets each of the residents, sometimes requesting to wear a lady's necklace for a bit. Mrs. Fletcher calls her the "One-Woman Entertainment Committee"! :) While we give Mr. and Mrs. Fletcher time to visit alone, we explore all of the critters on the Beulahland campus.

Our first stop is always Popcorn, the resident pony. Susannah eagerly gives Popcorn apples and carrots each time we go.

"Hi, Horsie!"

Next stop, the "bawk-bawks" (aka--chickens)

The resident kitty walks alongside Susannah as she heads toward the swingset.

At the swingset, she encounters Maggie, the on-campus family's sweet beagle. She knows all of the animals by name and talks about them when I tell her we are going to Beulahland.
After our most recent visit, Daddy came home from work and said, "Susannah, where did you go today?" She thought for a moment while a smile spread across her face and she responded, "Fetcha! See Fetcha!" This is the way she says "Fletcher"...referring to the couple we get to serve weekly during these trips. What a privilege and delight it has been to walk alongside this lovely couple in this season of separation due to health issues...
As always...THE MOON!!!!
Now Susie Joy and Judah both love the moon perhaps equally! Melissa and I will call each other to meet at the corner separating our houses when the moon is particularly clear, as the babies love nothing more than to gaze upon its beauty!

We took a short walk as the sun was going down one early evening, and the moon was already visible. Susannah sat entranced after declaring excitedly, "Oh wow...crescent moon!"

Such a dollbaby....